How the Body Expresses Time Has Always Been a Ritual

December Twenty-Seventh Two Thousand and Eighteen 

A Song to Sophia

Around this time last last year

you

sitting at your kitchen table in Tehran.

me

sitting in one of your son’s living room in the County of Oranges.

Until then I did not know you sang so sweetly.

The last time we were face-to-face one of your son’s, my father, held a phone to connect us.

Years and kilometers collapsed.

I did not know at the time next year I would sing back to you.

Your pitch was high. My pitch was low.

One of your daughters, my aunt, delivered an audio message that traveled faster than the time it would take to reach a hospital.

Me lying in bed. You lying in bed.

Two minutes, a record of my heart reaching for yours.

Around this time next year, what will I do?

Sing a sweet song at the table under the rug you wove and be with you.


March Eighth Two Thousand and Eighteen,  Thirteen Minutes after the Thirteenth Hour  

The House is Shaking

Today he stamped his fingerprints.  I suggested plain black ink. (not red) After all it doesn’t matter when you finish; it’s how.

You move.

Imagining I’d be there to smell each room. I wanted to inspect the things you observed to confirm we shared something similar aside from genetic history.

My first memory of you:

“What did you say to me on the boat during the summer of 1988?”

A steady, soft, but stern gaze deserves attention. So does the timber of a voice I heard in a song early in the morning. Now I know this language is by my side in case I should ever need it.

“If you have something to say, say it in a way that arrests the audience.”

No matter how long it takes someday, someone will reply even if I am no longer here, remembering you writing.


December Eighth Two-Thousand and Eighteen

For Writing Sensations in the Body. Against Sensational Writing.

In the morning I decide not to frame time by participating in the following rituals: 

thinking about performing actions that make money, thinking of time starting after the birth of Christ, thinking of power as vertical, and writing the date numerically

 Our roots are behind us.

Past.  Presence

What is the word, in your language, to describe the moment a raindrop merges with a larger body of water? 

 

Future.

How the Body Expresses Time Has Always Been a Ritual is documentation from my autoethnographic research practice.